This is a crazy world we live in, and I feel as if it is sucking me into its madness. Thoughts and feelings that I had just a few weeks ago now seem not important. Lots of things are happening around me yet I feel like I am the same and my life is stagnant.
I wish I could find a way out of this spiral, but it seems hopeless. I am not depressed or sad, my overall mood is just ok. I am happy for my friends that have big news. Whether its marriage, a baby on the way, new job. My happiness for them is muted though and I will admit to being selfish. I wish many of these things for myself yet nothing is happening. Nothing is happening in my life, nothing ever happens in my life. Why should it?
No matter how hard I try, I always succumb to the same stupid mistakes that have burned bridges in previous relationships. I learn and I never learn. I can't escape my personality and destructive habits and it is my downfall in life.
Here's to hoping that things turn around soon and get better.